Welcome Coach Crystal!
I’d like to welcome a new coach on our team! Crystal is such an inspiration to me, and I wanted her to share her incredible story. She’s been through some terrible things in her life, yet she still has hope for the future and wants to help others. She is going to be such a light to people who think there is no hope.
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My Life Story
Written by Crystal
I was born almost 30 years ago. I would like to say that I was happily welcomed into the world, but unfortunately that was not the case. During my first year of life, I was not being properly fed, cleaned, or cared for. I was in my basinet while my mom was doing drugs and she somehow caught my basinet on fire. Luckily, that time, I wasn’t hurt. I was being fed barbiturates to keep me from crying because my parents didn’t like dealing with a baby that cried.
When I was 16 months old, my mother’s boyfriend shook me. The details of how and why it happened are still unclear as everyone that knows of the incident has a different story and the guy who actually shook me, refuses to tell me what happened. I wasn’t immediately taken to the hospital. Finally after having numerous seizures, vomiting, and an inability to walk straight, I was taken to the hospital. There were noted bruises around my neck, my spinal tap showed severe bleeding from my brain, and doctors noted previous trauma was evident as well as malnutrition. My retina was detached and my eyes were left scarred.
The hospital called CPS to let them know child abuse was suspected, but no charges were ever filed….my attacker was never charged with the crime. Fortunately I was taken from my parents and placed in foster care until my grandparents adopted me. I would like to say things got better after I was adopted, but that isn’t the case. My ‘mother’ was extremely abusive, both physically and mentally. I began to suffer from depression at an early age and by 3rd grade I was placed on anti-depressants. The only person that loved me was my ‘dad’, but he died when I was 10 years old, leaving me at the mercy of my ‘mother’.
Sinking Deeper into Depression
After his death, my depression became even worse. I was hospitalized numerous times. Eventually my ‘mother’ decided she didn’t want me anymore and she gave me away to my aunt. I continued to suffer from depression and eventually I went through the same cycle that I went through with my ‘mother’ …hospitalization and then abandonment. My aunt no longer wanted to care for me, so she sent me to an all girl Christian boarding school, where she left me until I turned 18.
I started my adult life feeling battered, abused, and unloved. The years to follow held more heartache and struggle. I had to deal with the death of my best and only friend, homelessness, hunger, and poverty. Being that I was legally blind, it was very difficult to take care of myself. Not being able to drive made things worse. Getting to the grocery store and doctor’s appointments was extremely difficult. People are more than willing to help out if it is a one time thing…but for me, it was a lifetime thing. I sank lower into depression. I felt like I was worthless, only half of a person, and a burden to everyone in my life. I very often thought about suicide. I couldn’t leave my house very often, so I found myself sitting in my room…often crying and praying to God to relieve me from my suffering. I begged him to just let me die. I felt like I couldn’t go on any longer. Obviously, he didn’t answer my prayers.
A Glimmer of Hope
One day, I came across a scripture that finally gave me some hope. Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Although that scripture didn’t take away the darkness that had enveloped me, it did shine a little light at the end of the tunnel. I wanted to believe that things would get better.
Finally, when I was 28 years old, my life seemed to be turning around. I started dating my childhood sweetheart, I had a permanent place to live, (no more sleeping on floors and couches) I was able to enroll in school, and I was able to work with Vocational Rehabilitation, which helped me get glasses and other visual aides.
Forgetting the Past and Moving Forward to a Bright Future
A year later, I am beginning to forget what it feels like to be sad and hopeless. I have hope now for my future. I am working on my health and fitness so I can lose weight and get in shape. I have started a new business venture to be able to help others reach their health and fitness goals and to be able to reach out to people and let them know that there is always hope. I now have goals to look forward to completing and I know that everything is going to be alright.
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